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“All the others ran to their deaths. That’s not brave, that’s stupid! From a scientific point of view, being able
to witness the death of a planet from a close distance and being also the sole guardian and curator of human
knowledge is an opportunity you get once in a lifetime,” she chuckled in a sad way. “But no! All of them just
took their rubbish and flew away to their families and children, to die. They wasted their lives and brains for
some antiquated, overrated, emotional load of shit…” She takes another sip from the bottle. “Well, fuck
them! They were weak. I respected them as professionals. Miranda could have saved me two weeks of work
on the satellite communication links, she was a genius with that crap, and Alex, a surgeon with the bloody
robotic arm. I struggled with that piece of junk just to readjust a few modules to the Unity Node. And
Nikolaev, my dear Nikolaev, he would’ve made me more of this vodka from those potatoes the Japanese
were growing back there. But all of them are gone,” she lets out a long and painful sigh, “literally, forever,
gone, turned to ashes. And I was left alone to witness how all they died, how everything just burnt down. It
took just a few rocks to transform Earth into fire, and in a few decades from now into dirt.”
She pauses, deep in thought, until something lights her face up.
“Well, that sounds good actually, ‘Planet Dirt,’ that’s what it is, isn’t it? That’s what it actually was all the
time. That’s what we all were. Dirt. I am a ‘dirtling,’ carrying dirt wherever I go. I am transmitting dirt to the
deepest corners of the universe. . . What am I doing here? Is this even worth the sacrifice? I don’t know how
to feel. This is completely new for anybody to know. Six psychologists, six! And not even one of them could
have told me anything of use to prepare for this. They didn’t have a clue. We all have lost close ones, family,
dogs, friends, and lovers, they’ve left you, they’ve betrayed you, or they’ve just died, but you always had
someone to go to, or something, a job to do, a research to carry out, a physical to pass, a paper to write, a
colleague to beat, professionally speaking of course,” she produces another sad giggle, “but how do you cope
with mass extinction? "How do you cope with having nothing else to do besides ensuring that this tin can
continues broadcasting 'humanity' to anyone out there who cares to listen, as long as your resources last, your
muscles continue to shrink, and the tin can holds?"
She yells to the ball of fire through the window “What for? What do they care for humanity? What do they
care for Van Goh or Atwood or Hawking or Cortazar or Buttler or Freud or the other guy? hmm, what’s his
name? Lacan, yes, Lacan! Who gives a fuck about Lacan? Who gives a fuck about me?”
After a long and deep sigh, and many more reddish droplets, she mutters, “It just so happens, I’m also the
stupidest, loneliest, and saddest of all human beings. . . Who’s up for a game of Solitaire? I guess that must
be me. Soledad.”
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